Here I sit.
I've not thought about blogging in a really long time. I'm a very busy person, you see and finding time to blog is not a priority. Why am I here now? I was looking for information for a friend and happened upon my blog. The information search is paused for now. I'll get back to it later.
I read through some of my past blogs and marvel at how far I've come, how much I've accomplished and how vastly different my life is from when I first started blogging. As I sit here writing the realization of how truly blessed I am hits like a hammer and I am awestruck.
In 2007 when I left my second husband and the father of my two children (adults now) I had not clue one what would become of my life. I just knew it could only get better. Well, it did and it didn't. At first it was a struggle. Single parenting without financial support. That eventually changed when I got the courage to take the matter to court. Life got a little better. Then the relationship I was in after my marriage ended faltered. It was not an ideal situation, far too much baggage to deal with and far more drama than I was prepared for. Drama that seemed to escalate as time wore on.
With the end of my next relationship in 2013 I was determined to take control and get my life in order. And that's exactly what happened. I renovated my townhouse to accomodate a foreign student, that income helped pay the mortgage. I made changes in my finances to allow me to be able to afford to live without the need for a second income and although that took time and a whole lot of effort I was making it work for me and my kids. Veronica was a few years away from graduating in 2015. Declan had just started high school and was trying his best to get through it, which he did and he managed to graduate in 2016.
In 2014 I met Larry, my current and LAST husband. Early on in our relationship I told him I wasn't going to just "live" with someone in a common law arrangement. That marriage had to be an option or we go no further. Obviously he agreed. Our relationship is like none I've ever experienced. They say, when you're heart does flip flops and you feel butterflies and it affects you physically, RUN. That's not a good sign. But if you feel calm and at peace, that's the relationship you are meant to be in. That's how it was with Larry. It was so different from what I was used too and what I expected that I worried there was something not right about it. Well, was I wrong! Everything is right about our relationship. I love him so deeply and he loves me just as deeply, maybe more so because he's about to get my face tattooed on his arm.
On a personal note, my battle with excess weight has been won! Not through Weight Watchers, which by the way is just a money grab. But by intermittent fasting and low carb lifestyle. I still eat carbs, I just know how much my body needs to burn without having to store it for later. Not to mention, we don't need to eat as much as we have been programmed to. When I'm maintaining I will eat once every 12 hours, when I feel I need to drop a few pounds because I was "bad" on the weekend, it's every 22 hours before I eat. I use ketosis to burn fat and for me it works awesome! I do drink a lot of water, and I do take all the right vitamins so I'm not lacking anything. We inundate our bodies with way too much food (and not necessarily good food) that our bodies are constantly processing and storing, it needs a break every now and then. So, yes, now I'm finally happy with my weight and the fact that I fit all my skinny clothes again and have for almost a year! The fat clothes have been donated!
All that being said, I truly am blessed. My life is where I want it to be. I have a great home, a great job and a husband who loves me unconditionally. I can't complain, well, winning the lottery would be nice. Oh what a dream that would be!
T.
